Monday, May 6, 2019

my bad

It's always someone's fault and a person to blame and in this case and most others is the responsibility falls on me. I don't like responsibility. It means I have power to hurt you, to not give you what you need, to not be there, to get tired of being asked and ignored in my what seems like a simple request. I don't want to fight. I want to admit that I can't handle being a friend.

I aspire to be an acquaintance which makes me an asshole.





7 comments:

Anonymous said...

Kinda hard on yoself, amigo.

Shea Goff said...

Nah. This one is my bad, and I hate that because I don't want to be the person I was Friday.

If we are the way we make others feel, then I sucked. We both did. Are there people in this world who are amazing and awesome and beautiful and intelligent and all the good words but something about you makes them want to torture you and your response is ugly and Friday?

I'm hard on myself because I don't want that to ever happen again.

Anonymous said...

Sometimes you gotta do what you gotta do, even if it ain't fun or right or nice.

Shea Goff said...

What do we teach the kids? Shouldn't we always be kind? I am just going to shut my mouth more except for here with you.

Shea Goff said...

(should've said try. try and shut my mouth more.)

Anonymous said...

Told mine to always be kind unless "they" give you no other choice, then do what you gotta do.

Shea Goff said...

It has to be that with a million things to do we should never be bored. That's something my mama always taught me. There's plenty to be done and walking around whining about anything is a waste of time. Do I know how lucky I am?

(Yes ma'am)

Yours is as blessed as I am.