Sunday, August 31, 2014

camera



Today I am grateful there is still so much to learn.

Saturday, August 30, 2014

numbers

By these calculations someone is seeking our attention.


Today I am grateful for the United States Military.

Thursday, August 28, 2014

yellow dog




A dog so cool he had a company named after him.


Today I am grateful for lessons in loyalty and hilarity and at least I was able to wear those shoes for a couple of months before he disintegrated them in five seconds flat.

Wednesday, August 27, 2014

consequences


There will come a day, little bird, when your Daddy calls you because he misses your voice. You'll sound confident and happy and all adult-like. As a result he will become confident and happy and all adult-like.

His world. Your hands.
Sorry. That's just the way it goes.


Today I am grateful for a phone call.

Tuesday, August 26, 2014

overflow





When Bebe began a daily practice of doing what she loved it was only natural her love would grow until eventually she could not help but share it. Surely it's impossible to keep something like that to yourself.


Today I am grateful to witness what happens when a cup overflows.



Monday, August 25, 2014

relief

Blossom, Relief Print by Jill Hammes

Chulahoma, Relief Music by Junior Kimbrough covered by The Black Keys



Today I am grateful to know I can always find what I'm looking for in this world.




Saturday, August 23, 2014

the give




Surely at the end of the day, the next morning or week later, the very best you could say is I gave myself to the project.




Today I am grateful for the opportunity to bring my camera to the party.

Friday, August 22, 2014

leader


Reader, you know I don't take you many places. You and me, we usually avoid the gussied up stuff, but last night…

I don't know how she did it.
It wasn't even a direct order.
The day before she told me, actually said it out loud to me, I didn't have to go.

Please, woman, I thought. I am going to see you win this award though you have begged that it be presented away from the festivities in a dark corner all alone. Nope. As your friend I will go and watch you suffer.



Because, my friend, yes. This is about children and reading and literacy and one team, one goal, no limits and the power of the purse and you, my friend, have so much power you made me get my hair done.


Without actually saying, "Hey, you. Brush your hair, please."


I did more than that for you and you didn't have to ask because after spending the past year and a half in your vicinity I have obviously come under some type of hypnotic trance which is basically the award you were given. The making people do stuff they wouldn't normally do award. 

And I have to admit, they're not so bad, actually quite good, these places you take us.




But even with all the glitz and glamour and that entire plate of sandwiches I wanted to take home as a midnight snack, I know the reason we were there was because of those children in your head who will get so excited each month when their Mom or Dad walks into the house after receiving a new, free book. And maybe, just like you, they'll fall in love with words put together to make sentences which flow from one page to the next and create images and places and dreams of life outside the one in which they were born.

I know you did it for those children, not for an award.








But it had to be given to you, because Homeland Security has asked we document all of those people who practice your type of mind control.

Congratulations, lady. You're now on a list.


Today I am grateful for those who take the lead.





Thursday, August 21, 2014

remedy


Today I am grateful that once again all I have to do is walk out my door to feel better about what is going on in the world around me. It never fails. It is the advice I give my son. Go work in a soup kitchen, volunteer at a school, help a community plant a garden, join a book club.

Always, always, the only way we'll ever see change is to be it.



Wednesday, August 20, 2014

Karen

Simply beautiful.

Exquisite, I think.



Today I am grateful Karen's voice.







Tuesday, August 19, 2014

pain

Maybe tomorrow or the day after that, I tell him but offer no relief.
Soothsayer I am not. Times like these I barely resemble a friend.




Today I am grateful for prayer.







Sunday, August 17, 2014

primary


Last night as I had chocolate cake for dinner after deciding that a shower in the previous twenty-four hours was not appealing I became suddenly aware of the life I was living.


I think this was the dream I had when I was only three years old. 
Forty-one years later and I'm here. 
If I could I'd go back and hug that kid.


Today I am grateful for chocolate cake and paint and excuse me while I head for the shower because even the three year old is aware of limits to the senses.

Saturday, August 16, 2014

cave sweet cave



What are your plans for this weekend?

Talking to my kid.

About what?

Anything.

Then what?







Today I am grateful for days containing hours of music and sleep and how lovely it is to simply rest up.


Friday, August 15, 2014

horrid

Grand Budapest Hotel


Do not watch it, people. It's ridiculous and will harm your sensibilities and the language and was that an old lady's tit?

Oh my. What was Wes thinking?

______


M. Gustave: Why do you want to be a Lobby Boy?

Zero: Well.
         Who wouldn't?
         At the Grand Budapest, sir.
         It's an institution.

______


Dear Wes,

I hate cleaning toilets, but I will clean your's daily with a toothbrush. Need an intern? A sandwich? Something ironed? I am your girl.

In Admiration,
Shea


______

Today I am grateful for a movie.









Thursday, August 14, 2014

sentiment



Dear Liz,

You did not have to do what you did. You could have put me aside. Nobody would have been the wiser. I don't know how to thank you. Should I send you lunch, a handwritten note, flowers? No matter what it is I'll go ahead and concede that there is no way I can match your kindness. Just know that because of you I'll spend the rest of my days remembering and trying.

Thank you for what you showed me.
Shea

Wednesday, August 13, 2014

you already knew this



Awesome people are everywhere.

Seriously.

Here, too.



Today I am grateful for the people who keep on keeping on. It's amazing, the work they do.

Tuesday, August 12, 2014

question



Maybe every couple of years or so we should pose the question to ourselves, How long has it been since I last danced?



Today I am grateful for a simple question.


Monday, August 11, 2014

contrast





Hello, Monday.



Today I am grateful for a weekend in the cave.

Sunday, August 10, 2014

life stylist

Day two.


It rained as if all the pain in the world just decided to wash away and it's been too long since that happened. Too many days between good, hard rains and I didn't even realize how long until it came.




So
yeah.
It was good.


Some days, like this one, are good because I let the world be and didn't get in anyone's way and yes, I am trying to feel good about being extremely lazy.

And it's working.


Today I am grateful for creative rationalization and an afternoon nap.








Friday, August 8, 2014

ridiculous

So
he doesn't call because he can't. and that makes sense. because everything before now did as well. until now when he can't call. because in a way that doesn't make sense.

decision making led him to a point where he is but he never would have made the direct decision to be there.

he was a man of a certain amount of faith.

does that make sense?

okay.

*****

I had a dream the other night, morning to be exact. Morning dreaming is one of those things I would use to refute the whoever how long it takes for you to get to REM (not the band). Of course, I don't know because I'm no expert on any sleep but the kind I get from let's say 5am till 7am.

that sleep.
yeah.

deep in the pull of gravity on your head into the pillow. deep in the way the drool drips off your chin. from having a body to not having a body to having a body and that body feeling weird deep.

but surface too because you're aware of where you are and who.


I was in a bar in a mall in Washington DC and he was there, the he in the particular particle "the" he in "the" one. One more time my Mom gets to roll her eyes, and one more time I say, It's ridiculous. the dream. It's ridiculous how it felt.

but.

I'll take it. that. just that dream. because that dream felt good. there was no need.



Music from Josh.

Art from Dooce.





Today I am grateful for this opportunity to sound so ridiculous.











Thursday, August 7, 2014

running






Today I am grateful for a dream.

Wednesday, August 6, 2014

I think I'm in a gang now.

Graphic by Josh Miller of Yellow Dog Printing (a guy who needs to get his website up and running)

The world has been taken over by swans and children and reading and what's next and Wait! I still haven't finished that.


Today I am grateful for a loss of self and how that creates space for so much else.

Tuesday, August 5, 2014

exit interview




He says he always asks them, What could I have done better?



Today I am grateful for what we ask of ourselves.

Monday, August 4, 2014

Team Shannon





She says a lady walked up to her. The lady said, "I am feeling depressed. Is there anything I can do for you so I can feel better?"


Today I am grateful to witness such a strong sense of community and to be reminded that there is always something we can do.