Thursday, February 27, 2014

blue moon eclipsing

George Mitchell

I am so very grateful for the storytellers of this world, the heroes and the villains, the salvation and the redemption. The humiliation, the forgiveness. How we fall and how we rise and how in the end it is only through the teller that we exist in pieces.

Wednesday, February 26, 2014


Day one of ten in the building of a website.

I have watched videos, read articles, studied vocabulary, took photos, made notes, but today I venture onto the landscape of a white space. This should be interesting. Sometimes I wonder if I am just unaware enough to think I can do something. Then I realize what I would tell Slater in a situation like this, and there it is, the where there is a will there is a way and here I am with something to prove.

It's not like I'm trying to jump the Grand Canyon on a tricycle, right?


Today I am grateful for a challenge, a deadline, an opportunity to reach and learn and test all those grand theories I espouse.

Tuesday, February 25, 2014

day 16,071

seriously, it's party time.

It's a birthday so I do what you do. I look back, look forward, take inventory and smile when I realize all that has mattered, the great achievements of who I am, had very little to do with me. I've been gifted and certainly not in one of those ways where they put you with all the smart kids. If I was responsible for anything it was just to notice what a gift life is.

Today I am grateful for my son, my parents, my friends and my front porch swing. 

Monday, February 24, 2014


He spends the morning with my Dad, his Pop, and I tell myself not to be selfish. Sometimes a boy wants a morning with his grandfather and it doesn't matter that he has come to get some of his last vital papers like his passport or his birth certificate or here's the title to the car. A cooler full of venison, his hiking backpack, a sleeping bag, and we laugh about our old camping trips.

It's just
lovely and I'm grateful. That's all.

Sunday, February 23, 2014

proof positive

If we are all special then what does special mean. It has to be something we dreamed.

Today I am grateful to understand we are no more and no less than what we perceive to be.

Saturday, February 22, 2014

something to prove

pull up a blanket

You know how we talked about how we meet people in this world who mirror us? How when there is something about them that annoys us it is most likely something we would like to change within ourselves?

Not my favorite rule either.

In a six hour meeting she raises her hand one more time, not to ask a question but to offer some justification for what the speaker has just said as if we didn't believe it in the first place and I like economy in getting the point across and admittedly wonder who does she think she is because obviously I'm in some sort of race to get out of here and

I am annoyed and frustrated and ashamed of my own impatience.

So this morning when I pretend we have all the time in the world I can say it seems she had something to prove and I can understand and love her for that.

Today I am grateful for the time we have to consider what we see.

Friday, February 21, 2014


Today I am grateful for the sound of laughter and how, just for a moment, we stopped taking ourselves so seriously.

Now we can get back to work.

Thursday, February 20, 2014


Today I am grateful for warmer nights and the promise of a hard rain.

Wednesday, February 19, 2014


If, as Vonnegut suggested, we tend to become what we pretend to be then sign me up for the lady who left the bathwater in the tub last night, whose vacuum is still in the hall. Her broom leaned up against a wall.

It's been a hard month so we'll agree that February was designed for those under twenty and I'll understand the best friend I have is also a mother to me.

I know how rare you are, how wealthy you make me.

Today I am grateful for the example of the woman I strive to be.

Tuesday, February 18, 2014


Artist: Justin

Today I am grateful for the ways we communicate.

Monday, February 17, 2014


Today I am grateful for a day, a drive, a release of the notion we were ever needed.

Sunday, February 16, 2014

little bird

I catch these glimpses of you. Once or twice a week we meet around a table. Your Mom. Your Dad. Grammie. Pop. Sometimes Jess, sometimes your Uncle Jason. Wyatt. Your Aunt Madalyn, your cousin Ava Dee. There is this ritualistic meet and you've grown accustomed to our faces and you smile when you see us and that smile of your's.    Ridiculous. It makes me grin to even consider it. I don't know about your parents but I think the rest of us would keep you just like this. Just as you are now with some new trick every week, the latest of which is a blown french kiss. This, of course, is more preferable than the ones you attempt to plant on our faces.

You are so sweet.

You dance, have an affection for rap and Pat's drumming in Howlin' for You. Of course, that was last week and you could be meditating to some Ravi Shankar by now because little bird, you just seem to accept and love so easily. Thank you for that. You teach us.

You have yet to firmly walk but I suspect the few steps you have taken were simply for applause and when you're ready you will finally grow a tooth. Because. This is your world and to be a part of it, even in these glimpses, is such a gift, a blessing.

Happy Birthday, little bird.

Today I am grateful for your presence.

Friday, February 14, 2014


Today I am grateful for a reason to paint, for black and red and blue, for splattered tables and t-shirts and brushes which will never come clean. For a heart that still swells and bright eyes and large grins and how if you don't know the answer your best guess is Elvis. Some days it is as if I have a ticket to see the inside of Disney and the secret is…….it is run by fairies.

Huge thank you goes out to an incredible art teacher and her even more incredible students.

Thursday, February 13, 2014

the good ol' days

You realize how you spend all your waking hours so you make plans with a kid because isn't that why we're doing all this and we just want the world to be better for them and then we spend time with the kid talking about how great it used to be when we were kids.

They are quite patient with us.

Today I am grateful for dinner plans with Jess.

Wednesday, February 12, 2014


Not confused.

Today I grateful for the comfort we find in the simplest of things.

Tuesday, February 11, 2014

ummm. hm.

'Cause you just never know what a day may bring.

Today I am grateful and confused.

Monday, February 10, 2014

current status

after the shoot

In the where are they now series we find Bo let his hair grow. Luke took a job offshore to pay for Bo's speeding tickets and hair products while Daisy talked the boys into trading the General Lee in for a red BMW.

Now you know.

Today I am grateful for those people you can call to rally for a cause.

Saturday, February 8, 2014


Cue music.

Little Star.

Today I am grateful to be reminded of our capacity for joy.

Thursday, February 6, 2014


If I have a choice.
This is what I choose.

Today I am grateful to understand the way I look at life is entirely up to me.

Wednesday, February 5, 2014


Great cover. 

Think I'll just enjoy it.

Today I am again grateful for teachers and the massive amount of work and study they do before and after they enter our classrooms.

Give them an apple? 
More like an orchard.

Monday, February 3, 2014


What will it look like if you win?     Imagine that.

I don't know. City planners, four lanes with flowering trees planted down the middle. A walking downtown and a mill renovated. Jobs for the people here and jobs for others. A fancy place to eat. A music festival once a year. I guess I always assumed we would win because I knew we could. But now.

Don't you doubt that. Keep imagining what you can be.

Today I am grateful for those who encourage us.

for the sake of argument

Superfight! Top half was vampire slayer.

We get in the most absurd fights, quibbles really. Recommended with copious amounts of wine and the assurance you don't have to go to work tomorrow morning. Not recommended with whiskey and friends prone to violence.

You didn't need those friends anyway.

Today I am grateful for play.

Saturday, February 1, 2014


You realize I want to be my kid when I become an adult.

Today I am grateful to understand I gave the world the best I had and the best I had turned into something even better and surely that's how it's supposed to happen. You know. Science.