Saturday, April 30, 2016

push



Today I am grateful for doubt.

Friday, April 29, 2016

that look



Today I am grateful for a clean porch, a working air conditioner, and a weekend.

Wednesday, April 27, 2016

practice



Everyday. Just a little bit more. A little bit better maybe.



Today I am grateful for time to practice.

incomplete


They mention the honeysuckle. I wonder why I hadn't noticed it. 
(the answer always seems to be in the question)



Today I am grateful they mentioned the honeysuckle. 

Monday, April 25, 2016

improvement needed

There's nothing like a couple of good failings to let you know how much more work you need to do.





Today I am grateful to give myself those same little keep going quotes I would say to anyone else. I am also grateful to understand that I can do better.

Sunday, April 24, 2016

Saturday, April 23, 2016

less




"Good morning."

"Good morning."

"I hope you have a good day."

"Thank you. You, too."


Today I am grateful to need less.



Friday, April 22, 2016

time and space



Sometimes it's necessary to remind ourselves why we love this place.



Today I am grateful for time and space.


(on repeat)

Thursday, April 21, 2016

forget about that, think about this








This month's Sowashee theme is April, come she will. (more hopeful than August, die she must)
The above photos were from 2015. Today we have to find this year's photos.


Today I am grateful for homework.


Wednesday, April 20, 2016

pessimist



"There's this quote by the guy who invented the very first automobile. It goes something like whether you think you can do a thing or think you can't do a thing, you're right."

"I don't like it."

"Wait. Listen. If you think you can do a thing or think you can't do a thing, you're right."

"I know what it means. It's just that sometimes I think the worst. I don't know why but like there was this one time that Mom was late and I couldn't get in touch with her so I started thinking something bad had happened and when I finally got in touch with her I was crying."

"I get it. I did that today. As soon as I couldn't get in touch with you and Grammie I started thinking something bad had happened and my brain began imagining how you guys could need me and I didn't know where you were and I stopped it."

She smiles, "Really?"

"Really. I mean you don't have to call yourself a fool. You shouldn't call yourself a fool, but I use times like that to call myself a fool. I say, 'Fool. Stop that. They're fine. You thinking otherwise is ridiculous. Don't be ridiculous.'"

She laughs, "I didn't know you did that too."

"For sure. But you are brilliant because I didn't figure out what I was doing till my early twenties. You have a head start on me."



Today I am grateful to be a taxi service.


Tuesday, April 19, 2016

joy on a checklist




"Know that joy is rarer, more difficult, and more beautiful than sadness. Once you make this all-important discovery, you must embrace joy as a moral obligation." Andre Gide


Today I am grateful for all those things I didn't get done yesterday, for how that seemed okay, and no matter how fool hearted that must make me, it must mean that I have faith.

Monday, April 18, 2016

retreat



Middle, Somewhere



Today I am grateful for a retreat and weekend music.


Sunday, April 17, 2016

I'm killing me, Smalls

Alone I can tell myself I'm dealing with it well. This is only after about thirty minutes of not understanding why I can't detach audio, why I can't find the raw footage, denial, conspiracy theories and finally acceptance that earlier this week I mistakenly deleted the Como Sessions video in a ridiculous haste to make room for photos that put food on the table.

It's the Black Angel video, one I had declared a favorite. Of the five people who showed up to create, I was the one who let the group down.

Everyone else, the coolest people I've ever met.
Me, I know me, I won't soon forgive or forget what I did.


Today I am grateful for what the kid said, how he said something he has had to repeat time and time again.

Saturday, April 16, 2016

Friday, April 15, 2016

speed



It's the weekend. Time to keep right.



Today I am grateful for a change of speed.

Thursday, April 14, 2016

jazzy



You cannot not smile when these people play Brick House.


Today I am grateful to hear what happens when a whole group of people come together and do what each one of them loves.

Wednesday, April 13, 2016

redecorate



'Cause every writer needs a great space.



Today I am grateful for a teacher and some kids and the opportunity to learn.

Tuesday, April 12, 2016

ellipses




Today I am grateful for a long day, a good rain, and ...


Monday, April 11, 2016

stance



Today I am grateful to be reminded of where I was supposed to place my feet, how my knees were to be bent, back elbow up, waiting for the pitch.

Sunday, April 10, 2016

game





"I could do this forever."

"What?"

"Live on the road."



Today I am grateful for an away game.

Saturday, April 9, 2016

face



Today I am grateful for Frozen and fits and how when you get around a kid you can't even imagine what you were thinking before you were worried that the plastic dinosaur was going to attack you.

Friday, April 8, 2016

learnin' (the this is what you should do way)




 A little reminder of what she taught me last year.


Today I am grateful that though I may repeat myself, it seems that maybe, just maybe, I'm quicker at recognizing those not so great patterns in my life.




Wednesday, April 6, 2016

me begging you



"I need you to do something."

"Of course you do."

"I need you to like a YouTube video and then find 249 friends to like it as well."

"What?"

"By tomorrow night at midnight."

"I can't like a YouTube video. That would mean I would need a YouTube account and then they would know who I am."

"Who's they? Nobody cares."

"You don't know that. As soon as I do something like that they'll be sending me all kinds of stuff. You know how I feel about privacy."

"Okay then. I have to get busy. Bye."




Dear person on the internet,

Please go like the above video on YouTube. Tell everyone else to like it as well. Why? I don't know. I just really want to see this kid on stage again. I think she's incredible. And how hard is it to like a YouTube video? I know, I know. Hard for some.

Otherwise, just carry on with all the wonderful things you're doing out there.

Thank you,
me



Today I am grateful for the thought that maybe, just maybe if we get her on stage, she'll belt out that cover of At Last by Etta James.

I'm begging, people.






Tuesday, April 5, 2016

together



She said, "Someone will, but I'm not going to be the one to throat punch you."



Today I am grateful for friends.

Monday, April 4, 2016

time and mercy


"When?"

"I have about a month. You just need a free evening. There's no money in it so you'll have to provide your own gas."

"Why would I do it?"

"I don't know. I guess we all have our reasons. I can just say I thought of you to the point I imagined you in your zoot suit and hat and sunglasses and it's the blues. I think of you when I think of the blues."



Today I am grateful for his question. And video. I am grateful for video.


Sunday, April 3, 2016

time is a flat circle

here

turn off the internet, Shea.

But.

if only

they could be there.

hibiscus high



Sorry I can't do whatever you're asking. I am saving my money for iced tea.



Today I am grateful for plans and music and it's time to get out there.



Until then I'll listen here.

Saturday, April 2, 2016

not every day



I know. Every day brings the same opportunities for all those ways we try to be the best person we could possibly be and everything is inside of us and it's not where we are but who we are and no day should be any different from any other day but

I love a Saturday.


Today I am grateful for a certain day.

Friday, April 1, 2016

quiet





Today I am grateful for the silence.