Put me down for a black, first available will be fine.
I have a secret that I will tell you here. And it's going to sound all pitiful but it's not. I'm much less impressive than you can imagine. I'm not the best conversationalist. I ramble the most absurd things. Sometimes I think writing is some type of sorting for me. Slow, remember. And I don't necessarily consider myself a kind person.But you seem incredibly kind. I love that you are here. And I don't necessarily know if I fear meeting you or fear the disappointment on your face. Some say listen to your gut and some say face your fear. Tear down walls or build them up. What I do know is that you made me consider how meek feels. (could you get vulnerability added to the definition?)
If we were to meet someday, I'm sure I would be devastated by the look of disappointment on your face. If you truly don't know my identity by now I'm sure I have played this anonymous game to well. As for vulnerability, it's my life story. Love has always been my weakness, the wrong one, not enough, to much and losing. I've lost good friends and family that never knew how I loved them or why. Lost love has hardened me over the years which makes me vulnerable, the fear of loving and losing I guess. It's bad that I can't tell the ones that aren't with us any longer how I feel, even worse I can't tell some of the ones still here.
My be I should have just played this instead of typing that. https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=RLCGQagBCOw
Then this, https://youtu.be/mrZRURcb1cM
You know, every comment is my last At least that's what I tell myself, better enjoy I might start listening to myself.
Thank you for the music, and hey, I understand. Do what you need to do. I, too, will always be here till I'm not anymore.
I ain't goin no where. https://youtu.be/qo65DKoJQ3I
JJGREYANDMOFRO, if you ain't already
It's been a while. I'll check them out again. This morning it's Eddie again for me.https://youtu.be/b4K5od-uZEY
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